August 2010
Follow your heart
One thing Jiaw said made a lot of sense. He said he hated giving advices cos everyone’s gonna tell you the same thing, but it’s ultimately up to you to decide what you wanna do. And very often, what you wanna do is the exact opposite of what everyone tells you. But I didn’t actually want advice, I just needed to hear the reasons why I should stay on. I got so blinded by my crazed...
Anyway, we turn one today. It's been a long,...
Sudden epiphany
After talking to Jiaw, Eli, Syida and my brother today, I’ve decided to live for myself. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Every time I get into a relationship, I’ll just immerse myself into his world, like I live solely for him. I don’t want that anymore. I don’t want to be some useless leech that does no good. I don’t want him to feel weary cos...
Today his words keep playing in my mind on loop. They’re trying to eat me and I’m letting them do exactly that. I don’t know how much longer I can stay sane because I’m not really trying to. I just lay there and let them devour me. I feel so jaded but I keep hoping, wishing and wanting it to be more. And he never thinks he’s wrong. Just like everyone else, he...
“You are, after all, what you think. Your emotions are the slaves to your...”
– Elizabeth Gilbert, “Eat, Pray, Love” (via moronicbeauty)
I feel like I’m going to be stuck here forever if I don’t do something. But if I do, I’m afraid you’ll be gone forever. I wish I had the courage, I wish I had no fears. But I love you so much I’m afraid it’s becoming an obsession. I don’t know how to be strong. I’m just gonna have to do this. I always thought we were in this together. But now...
I don't know how to do this anymore.
“I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it’s the thing I like most, to...”
– Audrey Hepburn (via letsgobananas, quote-book) (via sinuousfadingtracks)
Why
is it that I’ve never dreamt of a future with you? I miss the guy who made me laugh so hard. I miss the guy who would do anything to make me smile when I was sad. Why are you instead, the cause of my pain now?
“And we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a...”
– Stephen Chbowsky, “The Perks of Being A Wallflower”
“Things change. And friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody.”
– Stephen Chbowsky, “The Perks of Being A Wallflower”
Just done reading “The Perks of Being A Wallflower”, I enjoyed it so much I think this is the only book I’ll actually read twice (or more). I could really relate to so many thoughts and it’s written in very plain english but the ideas were of great depth. I cannot believe that Syida (glitterides) said she only liked one quote from the book “And in that moment, I swear...
“Love is love, even when you’re not supposed to be together.”
– Grey’s Anatomy
There are certain emotions in your body that not...
Eli says you’re my delayed gratification. I think so too.
This morning, I woke up feeling drugged. I remember bits of my dream last night in a very disoriented way. The caller id on my cell was not who I was expecting… that’s about it. I keep hoping to hear from that person in my dreams, but for what reason I don’t know. We’re not even close to close in real life. The previous night I dreamt I was in a rush to wear my stockings...
“If you gave someone your heart and they died, did they take it with them? Did...”
– Jodi Picoult, “Nineteen Minutes”
“Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve.”
– Stephen Chbosky, “The Perks Of Being A Wallflower”
